Wow...

Wow... I right loads, I must say. I been writing recently but not here... I have been writing a book. Yes a book, my forth one. I right about horror, I have posted a bit of one of my books before. But I always get to the point where I don't know what to right or say in my books or you lot (the readers).
This is my new idea:
This world is strange indeed; since I can remember, i can see ghost, the dead and when I sleep... I swear; I am in hell. I don’t know why. It scares me. I tried to kill myself once but I couldn’t do it. My family and friends... need me and I couldn’t do it to them. I see the knife, the rope and then I see the faces crying. And then my dreams come to me and I don't want to go there... Ever but I will.
What is hell, I don't know... But what I have seen is hell to me. I see things that will destroy my very sanity but something keeps it together. I don't know what it is but I will find out.
I would describe (my) hell but it can wait till later... You don't need to know yet.
Pain, torture, torment... All are the same and yet so different but I see it too much. I see it behind people’s eyes and in their minds. I see it too, yet so painful. Hell is a personal torment. How do you respond to a thing like this? I don’t know.
What do you think? I need to know, I don't want to start with a bad idea... Please tell, is it worth it?